I’ve been planning this post for months, but as I sit at my desk to type in, words seem to have fled. My last exam ended yesterday, closing the last chapter of my medical school years. I’ve technically graduated!
The journey was tough, the path was filled with traps and hitches, and there were times when it seemed I’d never cease to suffer.. But somewhere among all this chaos, somehow, good memories shone. Funny moments and amazing friends. For some reason, all the crap I went through no longer matters! 🙂
P.S. Until results are out, I need everyone who stumbles by this post to pray that my friends and I would pass our latest excruciating Ob/Gyn exam. None of us is by any means ready to study again for 6 more months!
Confessions of a house officer!
Alright. I can see the end emerging at the horizon! Final exams’ schedule is declared, the grand finale shall start on November 16, and guess what happens on December 23! I WILL FINALLY GRADUATE! The mere thought lifts me up on cloud 9!
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Today is first day back to schools! It doesn’t , however, apply on senior med-schoolers simply because we haven’t yet finished the year before. Anyway, while my sister dressed up for her high school and brother went off to college, I kept remembering the little kid who made a scene on her first day at KG!
I was a delicate three-and-a-half-year-old kiddy whose sense of security boiled down to the word; mom! I couldn’t apprehend being left with kids I had never met before, doing activities I wasn’t used to. A storm of screams and cries had launched and nothing, absolutely nothing could tame it, even candies! I remember when mom eventually gave up, she took me to the school’s playground and sat by my side on a swing until I cooled off. Then she took me home! It took me like a week to adapt!
My first day at college was quite the same, except that I was crying inside. I was a naive 16-year-old teen, completely unaware of what awaits me. Mom couldn’t lull me; she was abroad and totally out of reach. Dad, however, drove me to college and left right away. My aunt who graduated from that very place, nevertheless, was a great company. I will never forget the shock when I entered that lectures’ hall for the very first time! Literally, more than a thousand students sat there, in the same room, innocent-faced and confused, just like I was!
We grow up so fast, don’t we?!
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Do you know that feeling prior to your very last exam ; that indifference mingled with lust for freedom?? It’s what I’ve been feeling since last March! I have never held any love for studying, but this year, I have no desire as well!
Few days back, I had an Ob/Gyn exam and literally attended without any studying! Next Monday is a BIG midterm surgery exam, that involves the whole curriculum. Guess what, I haven’t yet read a word! And the thing is, I don’t yearn to and I have no regrets!
It’s just… Meh!
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It all starts at 12:10 pm.. I wake up in panic, for my surgery revision class has already started! I dress up in rush, and dash to the street. Luckily, the centre where the class is held is a 5-minute-walk! Temperature, however, is like hell and sun is licking my face, not to mention the fact that I am FASTING. I need a ride!
I keep walking, hoping that a cab will show up and save me, but no sign! Few seconds later, I stumble upon my cousin’s car and he drives me to the centre! Phew!
Finally, I am here. An hour late, thirsty and sweaty, but better than missing the whole class. I’m ready to pay the fees to the clerk when he tells me the class is CANCELLED!!
Gathering my strength, I drag myself back home. No empty cabs pass by.. When I’m few steps away from home, I decide to get into the market and buy some grocery, the day has to be useful one way or another.. I carry a handful of goods to the cashier, but I drop the yoghurt all over the floor before getting there! Thank God it hasn’t spilled!
“48 pounds!” Says the man. When I look into my wallet, I only find 25! Had to give back half the stuff, and to take the jumbled yoghurt of course!
An hour later, when I check my phone, I find 1 unread message from a friend saying this:
The revision has been cancelled!!
It never gets any easier; the whole med-school-spinning dilemma. Though it feels pretty satisfying to be the eldest in your college, the bulk you’re supposed to study isn’t pleasing whatsoever!
I’ve always knew “Obs & Gynae” is disgusting, but it has also been proved to be extremely boring; I’m not glad to say it, but when it comes to medicine, women suck! Regarding General Surgery, well, it seems much less boring, but as for a student who ultimately wishes to specialize in ophthalmo-surgery, eye is the only organ that really appeals me..
And here I am, whirling for one last year, holding on my hopes to get out with enough sanity!
Boom! School’s coming back! Well, ten days from now I’ll be doing it all over again; getting up early, following schedules, spinning everywhere and the whole dilemma of med-school!
The only good news is, this year is my 6th and FINAL year, oh yeah, 12 unceasing tough more months to survive before I rock as a doctor! 😀
*Happy dance* Wooh! 14 months of mental and physical spinning have finally come to an end! I still can’t believe I don’t have to dive into jams of medical books for a while, that I’ll wake up whenever I feel like it, watch as much TV as my eyes can tolerate, have time to revive my NaNoWriMo dead word count, get to catch up with friends I haven’t seen for long, earn my drivers’ license, join swimming classes though winter is coming already, lose much weight, and the list could go on forever! 😀
And most importantly, I will get back to aching your heads with my rumbling! 😀
This year’s curriculum!
Twenty days ahead, coming with thousands of pages before final exams flood me for a month and a half! I still have no idea how I’d manage to finish all these books, in fact, I know I would never! There’s always a book or two that remain never opened, not mention a bunch of pages in each book.. It’s my ultimate procrastinator’s habit!
However, it’s so complicated this year; you can’t just leave a book unread, ’cause all the chapters are connected! I’m not used to racing the time, so now I guess is the right moment to panic!